Friday, May 02, 2008
in every thing, there is a good and a bad.
it's up to you which way you want to see it.
tripping over matters, getting doors slammed in my face as well as harbouring regrets aplenty these past few months have taken a toll on me. especially since i took a long time to look within myself to find out what i really wanted.
someone once told me that i needed to mediate, how true. :/
but it was a worthwhile journey. i found myself - in way, i think i found a way back to myself. i was never one for much emotional stability; too prone to spontaenity, extremity and its likes. i take failure like the end of the world. :/ and never really quite grew onto the idea of sharing problems. as always, i am deeply attracted to the idea of escape. hah. now though, i'm glad for the knocks (everything's on hindsight, girl!) because i have returned to that cocoon of familial closeted-ness which i had been drifting from. :) and i have that one or two kind souls that are willing to hear me rant and that i'm comfortable enough to trust my heart and its insecurities with.
i'm happy that may has come. everything will be settled soon. :) then i can start vacationing with the parents. i can lose myself in the old city charm of melbourne and hopefully (fingers crossed), europe or even london. and i can be happy, back to the girl who placed everything in just what her parents wanted of her and saw in her.
in a way, i guess i just want to return to my 11-year old self. ;)
un moment à se rappeler
. a moment to remember.
