Saturday, April 19, 2008
'what a week
-trammelled, unravelled, unspun yarn
distilled forms of emotion:
a myraid of test tubes for me to pick from
but what i did ( what i think i did)
was to chuck all of them into a crucible and heat them over the flames of lighted tealights and watch them vaporise in thin air.
dispersed. undetectable. intangible.
i don't want to know.
i don't want to see.
i can't look at honesty in the eye.
and i don't know if what i'm doing is right.'
- 22 April 2007
decided to go down the memory lane and see how i was coping last year this time. and surprisingly, i still remember how and why i wrote this entry.
the reference to tealights were from becca's balcony birthday surprise and my envy for that strong and sweet a love. :) and my mixed feelings and my (lack thereof-) honesty issues were towards a certain situation and a certain person.
the 'troubles' of youth. hah.
ironically, i'm much happier now though i still face various cases of conflict of interests.
too many things have changed over these past few months and it's really proving hard to keep some things i/we took for granted, intact and in place.
so i should be glad that some things don't change, some feelings always stay the same. :)
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let's stay this way and sleep the day away
and when i wake
you can make banana pancakes
and i can tell you what we used to do as kids
and hand in hand, we know we can just stay this way
un moment à se rappeler
. a moment to remember.
