Thursday, March 20, 2008
i have finally reached that point.
i'm tight with anger. it is good, i was supposed to feel this way a long time ago but it was always fallible hope or lingering resignation in the way. now nothing is, and i'm for once, truly angry. something just broke apart within me in that moment, and now i know. i can see everything for what it is and isn't.
and i'm not giving up. it's not that. something in me just died today, curled up and died. i wonder why i ever thought this would end up well and pretty when all i was doing, was setting up myself for the next fall and the next and the next...
it's no one's fault but my own. but i say phooey to all those people, myslef included at times, who believe running away isn't solving your problems.
sometimes you don't have a choice, you need to run. there's a delineated, empty segment missing at the side. a weird kind of feeling. but i know now that there's no other way-
un moment à se rappeler
. a moment to remember.
