Saturday, February 10, 2007
this sounds really stupid, but i cried just now.
for no rhyme or reason-
okay maybe there's with the post-camp exhaustion, the thought of all that work, of what to expect in the coming week...
even fun, enjoyment is tiring. and i don't like that pressure of expectations, of being made to appear to be whatever i can't really claim to be. and my own hypocrisy. sometimes i don't know whether i'm 'okay' or not myself. :/
dogs are better than humans.
babies, toddlers, children are better than you and i.
i realised i haven't been 'happycontented' in a long time.
but on a breezy night, with two dogs at my feet,
even with the knowledge that it is only momentary.
i felt happy, contented and if only,
if only time could have come to a standstill?
baths. flowery scents. warm towels. stars. sunrises. feeling of scattering rain drops. the ssound of leaves rustling. being alone and content. a faint half smile. a gaze.
un moment à se rappeler
. a moment to remember.
