Thursday, April 13, 2006
chocolate and vegetable soup for lunch :)))
finished the UN essay thing! YAY !
i got my new specs :) but my brother has been slamming me saying that they're poseur specs that people who aren't nerdy put on to have the 'nerdy' look. unfortunately (for him :P), his claim was quickly shot down by my parents who proclaimed in the loudest and proudest voice ever, "BUT YOUR SISTER IS A NERD! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?" :/ haha.
there's a long weekend ahead but along with it a long list of things to do..
there's a much awaited talk with loui, probably tonight? :) there's the om finals tomorrow in school where the fuzhou toilet-builders will be selling hotdogs! support us! and i'll be going slightly earlier to support some friends who are in om. then there's becca's bowling birthday thing in the late afternoon. and i probably decide to take up jen's invitation to do some csi easter thing on sunday at east coast.
on top of all that is homework which involves mainly long essays amounting to at least 1000+ words.. :/ and an editorial article to write. and packing for fuzhou. and all the other miscenallous stuff...
i think to give up would be better
for there seems no easy way out
anything worthwhile except for
the feeling that drives me on
who wants to sit on a carousel
to feel the familiar well of anxiety
and sick realisation of its endless cycle
where its UPS! and DOWNS!
just make you feel even more inadequate.
I find myself hating this sometimes
when the night is blue,
and the hearts lonely.
But the truth is,
I hate myself even more such times,
for letting myself fall into that inevitable chasm of nothingness.
whenever i flip open my notebook where i jot random stuff and school work on, i will glimpse upon the yellow note stuck on by liz, written on it "Tell Sze I love her!"
Thank you for friends.
un moment à se rappeler
. a moment to remember.
